St. Faustina Diary
This reminds me so much of St. Thomas Aquinas. When he discussed the 7 capital sins, he stated that one in itself was not necessarily a mortal sin. But a combination of 2, especially envy and pride, were a deadly combination. Notice how Jesus combined envy and hate.
Also this week’s church bulletin had a prayer of St. Thomas Aquinas. He wrote: “At distant intervals, Lord, you draw me out of my lethargy, but alas,they are only passing visits. I do not know if you love me, or if I love you. I do not know if I live by faith! I find only infidelity in myself, only random beginnings, only fruitless sacrifices & yet, I long for you.” Take heart, many of the saints had the same doubts. I feel the secret is to persevere. We hit those bumps in the road and don”t know if we are doing his will. We know we are on the right track in seeking Him. Remember St. Thomas Aquinas is considered an Angelic Doctor of the Church.
I also have a book I got when I was either a senior in high school or shortly after about St. Thomas Aquinas. It is called “The Quiet Light”. I have read it a couple of times. Love, Anita
Just when I think it couldn’t be more sobering, this poses another diary note which pretty much knocks me off my feet.
#1717 Why is it that it is so easy to concentrate on others than going deep within ourselves & dig up all the muck & mire within ourselves & bring that to the Lord? Why is it that we aren’t aware of “hearing” what He says by truly “Silencing” ourselves? The line, “They sense their emptiness, but they do not recognize their own guilt, while souls in whom I reign completely are a constant source of remorse to them.” How terrifying envy is. This also reminds me of the bible verse in the New Testament where Christ reminds us that it is easier to see the speck in our brothers eye than to see the plank in our own.” I must strive for true humility & deep remorse for the wrongs I am about.
God bless, love, cocoa1943
Hi again everyone,
Wow, that last sentence really spoke to me, “They are jealous of my gifts in other souls, but they themselves are unable and unwilling to accept them.” How many times while reading St. Faustina’s diary have I found myself wondering why God doesn’t give me the same graces He gave to her? Doesn’t He love me as much as He loves her? (I wonder if God loves us all “equally” but that’s a whole separate rant altogether!) And then I read, “but they themselves are unable and unwilling to accept them.” This is definitely a call to radical humility, I think. The only reason I think He gave her all the graces that He did is because she really and truly recognized her own nothingness. Which is just like what cocoa1943 said, about being quiet and digging up our own muck and mire. It’s so hard to be quiet these days though! There’s so much noise and so much busyness everywhere you go, and then when you do find a quiet moment, your mind races a mile a minute with all of the things that need to be done (at least that’s how it is for me anyway). Yet another thing for me to work on!
Thanks Aunt Anita for the quote from Saint Thomas! That’s one of the few things he’s written that I can actually understand! I think I’m going to write that one down and think about it for a while.
I just reread my first paragraph and I’m not sure it makes any sense but I don’t know how else to explain what I mean!
Many times when I read from the diary I think of a quote from Albert Einstein: “Just let me know God’s thoughts; the rest are details”. This reading, to me, is God communicating with us on the pitfalls with disobeying the commandments and the seriousness of being envious. I recall feeling less than good after telling someone about someone else’s real problems; so I am trying to get out of negative conversations about others and it is working with a lot of lip biting on my part. (and of course- Prayer)
Plus, He declares His time to talk with us “…times of grand silence” (now this little jewel from Him is worth figuring out what grand silence means and how can I get there).
I totally enjoyed reading each of your insights; either we are getting good at this or we have God writing what we really mean. I for one think it is a combination but I’ll let you figure out what the percentage is.
1717: This passage is so humbling. It reminds me of keeping up w/ the Jones’ & how horrible gossip & envy can be to my soul. Gossiping is such a hard one to stop. I try to seperate myself from those who bring it out in me the worst. I feel so empty and sad when I do. The remorse is overwhelming. It is extremely stressful being around people that I know I will gossip w/. How do we find self-control-the courage to do the right thing and just be silent?
Accepting and encouraging others gifts from God-being honest in our praises for others gifts. It is actually easier to praise my children than my peers sometimes. Envy is so infectious. Trying to be an honest “cheerleader” to others and their accomplishments & gifts from God-can be tough! Stepping outside of ourselves and what we want and being honest & loving to others. This is a “skill” worth working on daily for
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